Be True To Yourself
I’ve always been rather shy. Speaking in public is a nightmare. Social situations make me squirm. What do I do if I see someone I know, but am not close to? Do I say stop to hello? Is it rude if I don’t? What if they’re in the midst of a conversation? Do they even know who I am? Do they care?
What’s improved over time is my acceptance of myself. I spent years trying to be a different person. I wanted to be self-confident, the life of the party, a kick-ass heroine that knew just what to say to put that hero or villain in his place.
Um, not so much.
But that’s okay.
I wasn’t happy trying to be something I wasn’t. My first job out of college was in advertising. After an internship in a large advertising firm, I thought, gee I wish I was like so-and-so, the smooth talking, always on the go ad exec. I wasn’t. Not even close. But I thought, fake it ’til I make it, right?
Bad move. I was miserable. I could do the job, sure. But I didn’t like it and so while I got the job done, I wasn’t anything special.
Being true to yourself is important. It took me a while to realize that, but I’m so much happier now that I know it.
I never imagined I’d be a writer. To think I could tell a story someone would want to read was pure hubris. I thought my husband would think I was crazy when I mentioned I was thinking of trying to write a book. Instead, he said it was a great idea.
Thank goodness he had more confidence in me than I had in myself.